Spirit Crushed. Confidence Broken

A recent event (I won't get into what even it is, just that its recurring in nature) has finally accomplished what I believe it set out to accomplish. It's left my spirits crushed, my confidence broken and left me completely demotivated.  Every time, I prepare. I honestly do. And this time, I prepared more than I ever did. And yet, it got the better of me.  I never thought I'd really give up hope, but I guess life's full of surprises. I don't see the need In going on, it's absolutely pointless.  And so, I've almost given up. there's enough drive in me to face it once more time, one last time, and I'm hoping I'll get the better of it, but that'll be the last time.